COFFEE AND LIFE

 I'm currently in my fav cafe, with my fav singer, dan, entahlah kenapa, tapi I kinda feel like I'm falling in love bila I enjoy coffee here. 

Actually I was here for affogato, tapi the ice cream belum ready so I had to order something else, and I ask for recommendation -- the girl told me to try einspanner (?) ah I''m not really sure how to spell it haha lol. But the foam wasn't as  good as the coconut cloud -- sebab yang ni I boleh rasa ada manis like from susu pekat. Tapi the coffee was still good and I'm feeling like a new person. A new person who fall in love with something as simple as enjoying good coffee. 

And I could feel the blood rush in my body for every little sips I taste, trying to identify every little taste of the sips.

And now it felt like I wish I ordered some fries to pair it up, tapi sebab I datang memang semata for the affogato, so tak rasa nak order fries pun. Sebab affogato dah nice untuk di enjoy secara solo. And it was enough to make me fall in love all over again, in this small town, towards the little things in life.

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Anyhow...

these past days I ada connected with my past life's story, cause apparently he's looking for me for some clarification. The one yang buat I kembali berada dalam loops of uncertainty.

"You dah 30 kan?" -- he laughs.

"Belum lagi, okeeyy, I'm in my last 20s still, this year. And I'm basically still 28." His age is also 28, cause he is just actually 5 months younger than me, only we're in a different year. 

"Nanti nak kahwin, jemput eh?" dia gelak lagi, "I...mungkin lambat lagi, mungkin dalam 5 tahun lagi.."

And those words tiba-tiba buatkan I ter-flashback, two years ago, he told me the same thing-- untuk I jemput dia kalau I dah nak kawen. Only my respond time tu was like, "Of course you're gonna be there, you'll be the one yang salam dengan tok kadi, and my dad." 

That time, he told me he might need two more years before deciding untuk kahwin, cause he'd still managing his trauma with his past. 

Anyway, I tengah dengar lagu You Are In Love by TS, I remembered how I could be silly with him, playing around and asked him to listen to this song while excitedly explain the song to him. He laughed. 

I remember those memories, like it's still fresh in my mind. 

Then, after the conversation about asking to ajak dia time I nak kahwin tu, we didn't spoke about feelings or whatsoever, for the entire 2 years. Until this year he came back, last week. 

He came, just to greet me like nothing happen, like it was just two days ago we've had our conversations. 

Guess what I felt?

Confuse as H. Like, how could you ? 

And we were laughing again, like there's no missing space between us.

I'd already forgotton his voice, his laughs, his everything, and was doing fine in my life, and suddenly it came back.

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Ah, I think I was carried away with this already. I need to do my work and this supposed to be just a simple hi and some good stuff I'd share with you guys but here I am, reminiscing those days lol. Kbye.